March 9, 2015

Dear Friend,

I feel like I just keep getting shit on. People keep deciding to kick me while I’m down and then kick me when I’m bruised and down. I don’t know how much more I can handle. I’m breaking and I don’t know if there is anything that will stop me from being completely broken. I don’t know what to do.

This semester is extremely difficult. I am taking 14 credit hours with more coursework because we are in our second semester and go to my internship a minimum of 8 hours per week, sometimes up to 25 hours per week because I need to make up time. I am also trying to work my normal shifts and pick up a few more.

I am about halfway through the semester and I feel like I haven’t done anything. We haven’t had much due and now I do and I’m struggling. Tomorrow I have a reflection of my internship so far and I have no idea what to say. I am depressed and am barely making it through the day so how am I supposed to tell my professor what I am good at at my internship? I don’t think I am good at anything.

I should back up. This semester is hard. I am struggling. But my stress starting going up about 2 weekends ago at work. I got a call from my manager on Sunday saying that she had gotten a call from a coworker that I had abused an individual at the house I work at. Looking back, I realize I could have handled the situation better, but at the time it had made sense. Luckily, my manager decided it wasn’t abuse, but after that, I have been faced with the doubt that I am doing my job well. Now I have no idea if what I am doing at work is helping the individuals or not or if I am abusing them in everything I am doing. Then to make matters worse, the same day that I got called by my manager, a new girl started working and she was supposed to shadow me to get a feel for the house. Since I usually really only work weekends, after Sunday, I wasn’t back to work until this Saturday where I get informed that I need to be retrained on something. My manager wouldn’t tell me why and I found out that someone called Quality Assurance (the people who make sure we do our jobs well) about me doing something wrong so yesterday, I had to talk to QA about what I did. The whole time I felt like I was incriminating myself and now I am seriously afraid I am going to get fired. The two things together make me feel as though I am doing my job horribly and has caused me so much stress over the past two weeks. It is getting to the point where I think I want to quit and I just can’t handle it.

Then on top of all of that, it is midterm time. I have to write a reflection for tomorrow and I have two online midterms due by Friday. I did one today and almost threw my computer across the room because I was getting so frustrated. I have testing anxiety already and there were some questions that made no sense and I couldn’t figure out how to answer them. I actually broke a pen in half I was so angry. I had no idea what to do so I just selected random answers and didn’t give a fuck. I ended up getting an 82 so I am okay with that. I just have to do well on everything else in the class. Now it is 10:30 and I have a full day tomorrow at my internship (like 5 meetings) and I am not even close to finished with my reflection due in class tomorrow.

I just want someone to hold me and let me cry and sooth me when I start panicking and freaking out. I need that so much but I don’t think I will ever get that.

I’m just so tired and so frustrated and so at the end of my rope. I don’t know what to do anymore.

Love Always,
Aimee

March 5, 2015

Dear Friend,

Before I get into my life, I have been having this recurring fantasy lately so I decided to get it down in a story form, so is STORY TIME WITH AIMEE!!!!!

“Home Before Daddy”

It’s Friday. It has been a long and stressful week for Daddy and I and I cannot wait for the weekend, so I decide I want to be home before Daddy. I finish my work early and head home. I still have hours before Daddy will get home. It’s a blustery cold winter day, so I decide to make chili in the crock pot (also a plus that it won’t burn if we get distracted). Once its cooking away, I decide to get ready because Daddy will be home soon.

I shower and leave my hair to air dry and my face make-up free, just like Daddy likes and put on my new babydoll (link to a picture). As I’m just finishing, I hear his car pull up in the driveway, so I scurry to the door and get on my knees. As I hear his keys in the lock, I can’t help the thrill that goes through my body in anticipation for what Daddy will do to me this weekend. When he walks in the door, I can see his eyes light up and a smile adorn his handsome face as he smells the chili and sees me kneeling at his feet.

“Hello there, Baby girl. Boy did I miss your face this week.”

“Hi Daddy! I missed you too!”

“Me too sweetie. Now, why don’t you help me get my shoes off.”

“Yes, Daddy.” I reply as I untie his laces and slip each shoe off.

“Thank you, darling. Now, why don’t you make sure nothing will burn and clean up the kitchen a little bit while I shower.”

“Of course, Daddy.”

I watch as Daddy walks towards our bathroom and admire the man I love as he slowly strips off his suit. Once he is out of sight, I go through the motions of making sure everything is put away in the kitchen and the chili is set to low. All the while, I can’t help but imagine what Daddy will do to me tonight. I’ve been good while he has been away. I didn’t play, and I wore his plug everyday. Maybe he’ll use that hole tonight.

Finally, I’m done and decide to also bring his suitcase in the bedroom so that I can take care of his laundry later. Then I get up on the bed and present myself on my knees and wait for Daddy to get out of the shower. I don’t have to wait long and soon Daddy is coming out of the bathroom simply in a pair of jeans.

“Good, baby girl. You look gorgeous. Now, you have been very good for me all week while I’ve been away and I am so very proud, so tonight, you get a reward. Tonight, baby girl, I am going to use you so fully, you won’t be able to think, and you won’t have any idea what I am going to do, nor will you have any say.”

As he spoke, I could feel myself get wetter and wetter as I thought about just simply taking what he was giving me and never knowing what that was going to be. I couldn’t help the moan that escaped my mouth as my Daddy described my reward.

“Sound good sweetie?”

“Yes, Daddy. Thank you, Daddy.”

“Good. Now I am going to blindfold you and gag you. What’s your safe motion?”

“If I need you to stop, I bang twice with my hand.”

“Very good, sweetie. Never be afraid to stop me. Now, your neck is extremely bare and that needs to change.” Daddy says as he walks towards me with my collar. Once its on, I immediately feel a little more grounded than I did. After I have my collar, Daddy puts a blindfold over my eyes and I am plummeted into darkness. Next, I feel the ball of a gag hit my lips and I open my mouth for Daddy to put it in.

“There’s my beautiful girl.”

I can’t help but blush at the compliment. Next Daddy slides my babydoll up my body and over my head and I am left kneeling in front of him blindfolded and gagged with his plug in my ass. Suddenly, I am moved until I am on my hands and knees and can feel a chain go through the D-ring on the front of my collar and feel my collar being pulled taught. I must be tethered to the headboard of our bed.

“Good, baby. Now, you must stay like this. Okay? The only movement allowed is if you can’t hold yourself up with your arms okay? Nod if you understand me.”

I nod because its the only thing I can do. I love that Daddy trusts me to stay still and only be kept there by the one tether at my throat. As I am relishing in my Daddy’s trust, I feel his body mold to my back as he pinches and pulls on my nipples and I can’t help but moan. Just as I am getting used to Daddy’s fingers on my nipples, he clips one and then the other in quick succession and I squeal at the sensation of my nipples being camped and weighted down.

As I breath through the pleasure pain of my nipples, I feel something nudge at my dripping pussy. I can feel its a dildo as Daddy slowly pushes the large toy into my sopping hole. Once it is fully in Daddy straps it to me so it doesn’t slide out and turns it on and the toy comes to life, sending vibration after vibration through my clenching hole. I can feel my orgasm building and Daddy must sense it because I feel him by my ear and hear him whisper “You can’t come yet my love.” and I want to scream because my orgasm is right there, but I stop myself. Finally he turns it down and soon it is just a mild vibration keeping me constantly on edge.

Once I get myself under control, I feel Daddy slowly pull out his plug and I whimper at the loss in my ass. As Daddy calms me by rubbing my arms, I feel his hard cock bump my hole as it grasps for something to fill it.

“Are you ready baby?” Daddy whispers in my ear as he shoves his dick into my ass. I’m suddenly caught in a silent scream behind my gag and I can’t even breath. I feel so full I can’t even think. He hasn’t even moved yet! Finally, I catch my breath and Daddy starts thrusting in and out of my ass slowly. Then, I feel the vibrations in my pussy start to increase again and Daddy’s hands move up my tummy and he grips my tender breasts and tweaks my clamped nipples and he finally starts pounding my ass hard.

As he pounds my ass harder and harder, I can’t hold myself up and I fall on my face and just take what he can give me. I’m so on edge all I can do is feel everything that is happening to my body as my Daddy uses it. Finally Daddy whispers in my ear “Come now sweetie.” and I fall apart. My orgasm crests and in the same moment, Daddy turns up the vibrations in my pussy and another orgasm wracks my body as my first is still ending. Daddy is still behind me fucking my ass until finally he pushes in hard one last time and I swear, I can feel his come hit the walls of my anal cavity and I come again.

Slowly, Daddy pulls his cock out of my ass. Then slowly removes the nipple clamps and massages my abused buds. Then the vibrations go away and the dildo is pulled out of my pussy.

“You were amazing baby. I’m going to un-gag you and once I get the chain loosened from the headboard I’m gonna lay you down okay?”

I nod as I feel the gag fall away and my neck feel untethered. Soon, I’m laying on my side and my Daddy has his arms around me. I can’t help but to sag into his arms as I drift off to sleep.

I wake sometime later to the smell of chili and the realization that I no longer have the blindfold on. After looking around the room, I see my Daddy walk in through the kitchen with one large bowl of chili and I smile because I know that means Daddy will feed me dinner. And he does. We sit on the bed in silence as Daddy feeds me a spoonful and then takes a spoonful of his own until all the chili is gone.

“That was delicious baby girl. I’m glad you made that for us.”

“You’re welcome Daddy. I’m glad you enjoyed it.”

“I enjoyed this whole evening. Thank you. Now, how do we top this tomorrow? Tea party? Pjs and cartoons? Disney sing-a-long?”

“Surprise me Daddy.” I mumble.

As I drift out of conscious, I miss the way my Daddy smiles at me and kisses my forehead as he too succumbs to sleep.

So yeah, that has been something that has been in the back of my head for a while now. Don’t mind the awkward sentences and even more awkward dialogue, I literally just wrote it and haven’t edited it at all. I just wanted to get it down. Let me know what you think!

Since last you read, I bought a car!!!!! Its a 2008 Ford Focus and so far I really love it!!!! I also have a lot on my mind but I am falling asleep now, so I will try to write tomorrow about it. This past weekend was rough and I still haven’t had a chance to recuperate. I am so tired.

Love Always,

Aimee